Monica's Diary

Date	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	The Ken Starr Report
November 1992	What a hunk. I must suck his cock.	Clinton's Diary	William Jefferson Clinton elected President of the United States
May 1994	Bitch. Why does she get off his back. Why doesn't the Big Creep just apologize and get rid of her.	The 60 Minutes piece really works. Those saps will believe anything I tell them.	Paula Jones files lawsuit against President Clinton
July 1995	Today, I got my presidental kneepads.	Clinton's Diary	Monica S. Lewinsky begins White House internship
Wednesday, November 15, 1995	After 3 months of hard training, I'm ready. It was wet, it was slimy, it was really small but it's all mine.	Clinton's Diary	President begins sexual relationship with Lewinsky Ms. Lewinsky testified that she had her first sexual contact with the President on the evening of Wednesday, November 15, 1995, while she was an intern at the White House. Two times that evening, the President invited Ms. Lewinsky to meet him near the Oval Office.(15) On the first occasion, the President took Ms. Lewinsky back into the Oval Office study, and they kissed.(16) On the second, she performed oral sex on the President in the hallway outside the Oval Office study.(17) During this encounter, the President directly touched and kissed Ms. Lewinsky's bare breasts.(18) In addition, the President put his hand down Ms. Lewinsky's pants and directly stimulated her genitalia (acts clearly within the definition of "sexual relations" used at the Jones deposition).(19)
Friday, November 17, 1995	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	Ms. Lewinsky testified that she met with the President again two days later, on Friday, November 17, 1995.(20) During that encounter, Ms. Lewinsky stated, she performed oral sex on the President in the private bathroom outside the Oval Office study.(21) The President initiated the oral sex by unzipping his pants and exposing his genitals. Ms. Lewinsky understood the President's actions to be a sign that he wanted her to perform oral sex on him.(22) During this encounter, the President also fondled Ms. Lewinsky's bare breasts with his hands and kissed her breasts.(23)
Sunday, December 31, 1995	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	Ms. Lewinsky testified that she met with the President on New Year's Eve, Sunday, December 31, 1995, after the President invited her to the Oval Office.(24) Once there, the President lifted Ms. Lewinsky's sweater, fondled her bare breasts with his hands, and kissed her breasts. She stated that she performed oral sex on the President in the hallway outside the Oval Office study.(25)
Sunday, January 7, 1996	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	Monica Lewinsky testified that she performed oral sex on the President in the bathroom outside the Oval Office study during the late afternoon on Sunday, January 7, 1996.(26) The President arranged this encounter by calling Ms. Lewinsky at home and inviting her to visit.(27) On that occasion, the President and Ms. Lewinsky went into the bathroom, where he fondled her bare breasts with his hands and mouth. During this encounter, the President stated that he wanted to perform oral sex on Ms. Lewinsky, but she stopped him for a physical reason.(28)
Sunday, January 21, 1996	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	Ms. Lewinsky testified that she and the President had a sexual encounter on the afternoon of Sunday, January 21, 1996, after he invited her to the Oval Office.(29) The President lifted Ms. Lewinsky's top and fondled her bare breasts.(30) The President unzipped his pants and exposed his genitals, and she performed oral sex on him in the hallway outside the Oval Office study.(31)
Sunday, February 4, 1996	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	Ms. Lewinsky testified that she and the President had sexual contact in the Oval Office study and in the adjacent hallway on the afternoon of Sunday, February 4, 1996.(32) That day, the President had called Ms. Lewinsky.(33) During their encounter, the President partially removed Ms. Lewinsky's dress and bra and touched her bare breasts with his mouth and hands. He also directly touched her genitalia.(34) Ms. Lewinsky performed oral sex on the President.(35)
Sunday, March 31, 1996	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	Ms. Lewinsky testified that she and the President had sexual contact in the hallway outside the Oval Office study during the late afternoon of Sunday, March 31, 1996.(36) The President arranged this encounter by calling Ms. Lewinsky and inviting her to the Oval Office. During this encounter, Ms. Lewinsky did not perform oral sex on the President. The President fondled Ms. Lewinsky's bare breasts with his hands and mouth and fondled her genitalia directly by pulling her underwear out of the way. In addition, the President inserted a cigar into Ms. Lewinsky's vagina.(37)
April 5, 1996	El Smucko has been cheating on me. Now he's just trying to get me out of the way.	Clinton's Diary	Lewinsky transferred from White House to Pentagon
Sunday, April 7, 1996	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	Ms. Lewinsky testified that she and the President had sexual contact on Easter Sunday, April 7, 1996, in the hallway outside the Oval Office study and in the study itself.(38) On that occasion, the President touched Ms. Lewinsky's breasts, both through her clothing and directly. After the President unzipped his pants, Ms. Lewinsky also performed oral sex on him.(39) This was their last in-person sexual encounter for over nine months.
November 1996	Good thing. I don't think there is enough Viagra in the world to help Dole keep up with me.	Fool you once, shame on me. Fool you twice, shame on you.	President Clinton reelected
Friday, February 28, 1997	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	Ms. Lewinsky testified that her next sexual encounter with the President occurred on Friday, February 28, 1997, in the early evening.(40) The President initiated this encounter by having his secretary Betty Currie call Ms. Lewinsky to invite her to the White House for a radio address. After the address, Ms. Lewinsky and the President kissed by the bathroom. The President unbuttoned her dress and fondled her breasts, first with her bra on and then directly. He touched her genitalia through her clothes, but not directly, on this occasion. Ms. Lewinsky performed oral sex on him.(41) On this day, Ms. Lewinsky was wearing a blue dress that forensic tests have conclusively shown was stained with the President's semen.(42)
Saturday, March 29, 1997	He dumped me. The fucking creep tossed me out like a dead baby with the bathwater.	Clinton's Diary	Last intimate contact between President and Monica Lewinsky Ms. Lewinsky testified that she and the President had sexual contact on the afternoon of March 29, 1997, in the Oval Office study.(43) On that occasion, the President unbuttoned Ms. Lewinsky's blouse and touched her breasts through her bra, but not directly. He also put his hands inside Ms. Lewinsky's pants and stimulated her genitalia.(44) Ms. Lewinsky performed oral sex on him, and they also had brief, direct genital-to-genital contact.(45)
December 5, 1997	Now the bitch wants me to rat out El Smucko.	Clinton's Diary	Lewinsky appears on Jones Witness List
December 11, 1997	Monica's Diary	Clinton's Diary	In an order dated December 11, 1997, for example, Judge Wright said: "The Court finds, therefore, that the plaintiff is entitled to information regarding any individuals with whom the President had sexual relations or proposed or sought to have sexual relations and who were during the relevant time frame state or federal employees."(6)
December 19, 1997	The Big Creep told me if I don't have the gifts, I can't turn them over.	Clinton's Diary	Lewinsky served with subpoena to appear at deposition and produce gifts from President Clinton
December 24, 1998	At last, I'm out of this dump. You wouldn't believe what they want to do around here.	Clinton's Diary	Lewinsky's last day of work at the Pentagon
December 28, 1997	Hold on there's someone at the door. It was Betty Currie. I gave her the gifts. He just gave me the ?. Now he has Betty take it back. What aa red nosed swine.	Clinton's Diary	Lewinsky meets with the President and receives gifts; later gives box of gifts from the President to Betty Currie. Ms. Lewinsky testified that, on December 28, 1997, "when I was getting my Christmas kiss" in the doorway to the study, the President was "looking out the window with his eyes wide open while he was kissing me and then I got mad because it wasn't very romantic." He responded, "Well, I was just looking to see to make sure no one was out there."(116)
January 7, 1998	They say if I sign this phony affidavit I can have a job in the Big Apple! I'm not passing up a change to get out of this dump.	Clinton's Diary	Lewinsky signs affidavit intended for filing in Jones case.
January 13, 1998	New York watch out. You haven't seen nothing yet.	Clinton's Diary	Lewinsky accepts job offer at Revlon in New York
January 16, 1998	My ears were hurting today and it wasn't from Clinton's manly grib. I have a bad feeling about this.	Clinton's Diary	Special Division appoints Independent Counsel Kenneth W. Starr to investigate Lewinsky matter
January 17, 1998	Monica's Diary	Clinton lied his preisdental ass off.	President deposed in Jones case
January 18, 1998	Clinton reminds Currie of dead brother and suggests ways to improve her testimony	Clinton's Diary	President meets with Betty Currie to discuss President's deposition
January 21, 1998 Drudge Report breaks Lewinsky story.	President lies and chankes up the spin machine.	I did not have sexual relations with that woman ... Ms. Lewinsky.	Lewinsky matter reported in press; President denies allegations of a sexual relationship and of suborning perjury
April 1, 1998	Clinton's old student dumps the bitch's case.	Clinton's Diary	Judge Wright grants summary judgment for President Clinton in the Jones litigation
July 17, 1998	Ken Starr is out of control.	Clinton's Diary	President served with grand jury subpoena, later withdrawn in return for testimony
July 28, 1998	I'll show the big creep.	Clinton's Diary	Immunity/Cooperation Agreement reached between Lewinsky and OIC
August 17, 1998	Clinton starts world wide apology tour. Hillary gets to drive the bus.	Clinton's Diary	President testifies before the grand jury; later he publicly acknowledges improper relationship
September 9, 1998	Ken Starr dropped a 422 Megabyte email bomb on the House of Representives.	Clinton's Diary	OIC submits Referral to Congress pursuant to 28 U.S.C. § 595(c)

As the relationship developed over time, Ms. Lewinsky grew emotionally attached to President Clinton. She testified: "I never expected to fall in love with the President. I was surprised that I did."(44) Ms. Lewinsky told him of her feelings.(45) At times, she believed that he loved her too.(46) They were physically affectionate: "A lot of hugging, holding hands sometimes. He always used to push the hair out of my face."(47) She called him "Handsome"; on occasion, he called her "Sweetie," "Baby," or sometimes "Dear."(48) He told her that he enjoyed talking to her -- she recalled his saying that the two of them were "emotive and full of fire," and she made him feel young.(50) He said he wished he could spend more time with her.(51) According to Ms. Lewinsky's friend Neysa Erbland, President Clinton once confided in Ms. Lewinsky that he was uncertain whether he would remain married after he left the White House. He said in essence, "[W]ho knows what will happen four years from now when I am out of office?" Ms. Lewinsky thought, according to Ms. Erbland, that "maybe she will be his wife."(53) After phone sex late one night, the President fell asleep mid-conversation.(63) In a draft note to the President in December 1997, Ms. Lewinsky wrote that she was "very particular about presents and could never give them to anyone else -- they were all bought with you in mind."(78) Many of the 30 or so gifts that she gave the President reflected his interests in history, antiques, cigars, and frogs. Ms. Lewinsky gave him, among other things, six neckties, an antique paperweight showing the White House, a silver tabletop holder for cigars or cigarettes, a pair of sunglasses, a casual shirt, a mug emblazoned "Santa Monica," a frog figurine, a letter opener depicting a frog, several novels, a humorous book of quotations, and several antique books.(79) He gave her, among other things, a hat pin, two brooches, a blanket, a marble bear figurine, and a special edition of Walt Whitman's Leaves of Grass.(80) Ms. Lewinsky construed it as a sign of affection when the President wore a necktie or other item of clothing she had given him. She testified: "I used to say to him that 'I like it when you wear my ties because then I know I'm close to your heart.' So -- literally and figuratively."(81) According to Ms. Lewinsky, she sent the President a number of cards and letters. In some, she expressed anger that he was "not paying enough attention to me"; in others, she said she missed him; in still others, she just sent "a funny card that I saw."(85) In early January 1998, she sent him, along with an antique book about American presidents, "[a]n embarrassing mushy note."(86) She testified that the President never sent her any cards or notes other than formal thank-you letters.(87) In her handwritten statement to this Office, Ms. Lewinsky wrote that "the President told Ms. L to deny a relationship, if ever asked about it. He also said something to the effect of if the two people who are involved say it didn't happen -- it didn't happen."(89) According to Ms. Lewinsky, the President sometimes asked if she had told anyone about their sexual relationship or about the gifts they had exchanged; she (falsely) assured him that she had not.(90) She told him that "I would always deny it, I would always protect him," and he responded approvingly.(91) The two of them had, in her words, "a mutual understanding" that they would "keep this private, so that meant deny it and . . . take whatever appropriate steps needed to be taken."(92)